new

on saturday, i painted a lamp
the color of a new, standard, no.2 pencil.

fresh floor wax. book cleaning compound.
dried grass clippings. marita (the cook)'s sweet corn bread.

each year, a new chance:
we started over, every september.

i want it
not the halls of school, just a clean slate.

i am not to be trusted with my life.
how many times have i learned?

not all is lost. there is hope- that does not lie within me.
hope in the unseen. hope in the unknown. hope in the God of the new.

new pattern. new place. new circles.
new. new. new.

new mind. new love. new expectation.
new convenant. new hope.

pray, help me to grasp the new.
pray, help me. please help me
to let go.